I think...

I think I just want to stay home. I don't want to go to the pool or the doctor appointments or even physical therapy. It all takes away from what I really want to do. I want to work on my scrapbooks. I want to scrap.

But that's how I get. When I get into a project, that's all I want to do. If I didn't have to sleep I wouldn't. I do procrastinate about other things because I don't want to do them but I just want to scrap. I do like to scrap shop, though. I can do that a lot too. But mostly I want to stay home.

I don't want to make meals, or even get dressed. But, i have to do the basic stuff. I find that if I do what I want then I don't mind, even want to do the stuff I have to do . But, if I don't have time to do the things I really want to do then I resent doing the stuff I have to do . Make sense? I suppose I'm no different than every one else.

So, I went to the doctor yesterday. He's an arthritis & rheumatologist. I see him primarily because he really listens to me. He, and not my pcp at the time, suggested I see a sleep doctor and that I might have carpal tunnel. Right now he's trying to figure out why my "sed rate" is elevated. The sed rate indicates that there is inflammation in the body somewhere but we can't seem to find out where. This has been going on, on and off, since 2001. He's also trying to figure out why my hip hurts when I sleep. We think we've narrowed it down to bursitis. Now to fix it. If it didn't interfere with my sleep I wouldn't care. I think sleep is my most important issue. Without good sleep the rest of me doesn't function properly. Without sleep, I don't think as clearly, I'm more stressed, I don't have as much energy and I lay around more. In severe sleep deprivation, I tend to fall down and drop things a lot as well as take naps during the day.

My eyes are burning right now. They are tired but I am not tired. Does that make sense?

I will install the wall socket insulation downstairs today. I MUST go to the grocery store too. My cupboard is definitely bare. No more excuses. Then off to a new doctor with my daughter - want to be sure she gets the attention that she needs.

Tomorrow I'm going to a broadway theatre matinee - hubby and I are seeing Phantom of the Opera. I hope I enjoy it. Then dinner afterwards. Sunday I have a program that I'm in charge of with my women's group at my synagogue. So, my weekend is pretty busy. I really need to get in some serious scrapping too. I want to work on Steph's college scrapbook. I want to get moving on that.

Oh, I do need to go to Archivers to buy a scrap album.

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